Monday, 16 November 2015

Life update







Necklace - H&M (similar)
Cullottes - H&M (similar)

I haven't posted properly in so long! But with good reason. I have recently started a new job, so in between spending time on a training course in Reading and the awful winter weather ruining any chance of looking half decent, I just haven't had chance to take photographs. I'm still searching for that perfect indoor spot with perfect lighting - but this is as good as it's going to get for now...

I've started working for H&M Home at the new Selfridges concession in the Trafford centre. It's a part time sales role - so not a 9-5 office type just yet - but after a long summer of writing CV's, online applications and interviews, I decided to give myself a bit of a break. It was all starting to get on top of me and wear me down. I couldn't find anything I was seriously passionate about and everything I applied for seemed to lead to a dead end. I wasn't sleeping at all because I was so stressed and my whole outlook was completely miserable. It took a bit of exasperation from my boyfriend at how irrational I was being towards myself, but I finally sat down and stopped and reassessed everything I was doing. 

At the moment I feel fine about my life, my job and, kind of even the future. I know it's not going to be forever, but it's more than good enough for now. I feel a lot more motivated and confident in myself and my abilities. And earning a bit of money to be able to treat myself and have a nice time makes it all seem OK! I think the pressure of graduating from uni and walking into a job is way too intense. Nobody seems to say 'it's OK to still not know what you want to do with your life.' Or, 'it's OK if you don't want to do anything related to your degree just yet - if at all!' 

For now, I'm fine with saving up for going to New York, drinking a lot of mulled wine and getting out of bed everyday to go to work somewhere I actually enjoy!